Since beginning Usurper I have had one character in particular who troubles me; Evaliana Auliere Dyngannon.
Nice long name, I know. She goes by Liana, for obvious reasons. Who wants that mouthful every time you’re being spoken to?
Liana and I constantly have issues, which I know makes me sound insane but I’m an author so I’m allowed. (I hope.) But when push comes to shove, every time I try to write in her point of view I end up hating the scene.
Loathing the scene.
It’s too shallow.
There’s not enough oomph to the character.
I don’t know her the way I know Trenna (her mother) or Nelek (her father) or even Kaden (her brother). She’s this … anomaly outside of her family.
Or inside it, however you want to look at it.
She is … angsty.
And I hate angsty.
Seriously, I avoid angsty with all my power.
But as I’m going through this edit I’ve come to the understanding that … I’m going to have to deal with angst. In order for Liana to be a three dimensional character on the page, she has to be allowed to explain why she’s so … arrrgh! About everything.
I keep her scenes fairly brief.
I just have to. For my own sanity.
Until she grows up and gets over herself, she has a limited word count. (This is part of the reason I don’t do the Young Adult market all that well, can you tell?)
In return, I let her angst all she wants for that limited word count.
And then, once the angst has been written/edited/dealt with in some manner, I get chocolate.
Those are my negotiations … with my fictional character … who only lives in my head and on the page …
Yeah, I know how crazy it sounds.